10:40pm

10:40pm.. 10:40pm... I wanted to post the '25 things' that Farah tagged me a few months ago but my mind just wondered of to different ideas and interpretation.. oh, boy its going to be one of those long blog post..that does not mean a thing.. lets just say I about to reveal how rainbow complex can my brain be.. ok, here goes..

I have a thing for colours.. OOooo.. not so unusual you say?.. well how about if i tell you that in my mind when I see people I base them on colours.. what's even weirder I colour coordinate people with the surroundings and give them patterns like stripes and splats.. No, I dont exactly see it at the same time I'm looking at a person.. but .. I dont know how to explain.. but if i think of a person, to help me remember them.. I think of the colours that represent them.. maybe that's why I enjoy painting..

THE NUMBER 2, I always choose to look at things in two different ways.. I sound like a P.Moral text book.. haha.. ok, for example... there is two ways to end a song.. the music either stops at same time or it slowly fades away.. there are two ways to read a book, front to back or back to front, two ways to put food in your body, by chewing or drinking.. two ways to open a bag of chips, tearing (biting is the same to me) or cutting it open.. that's why I always have a sense of importance in the number 2.. with ' 2', you are given a chance of choosing.. this or that, here or there.. just like my first equation, 2 people starts a relationship.. then it ends up into a family.. The 'two theory' (-> yer! i sound like a scientist ), has long existed from the phrase it takes two dance, two to fight and two to love...

I myself don't really know how I can come up with all this.. its went I am all alone that all this strange ideas come to my mind like a few nights ago before I went to bed, after reading one of Jodi Piccoult's book 'Nineteen Minutes'..(a must read).. I cant help but to make my own equation of happiness... hers was Expectation divided by Reality =Happiness.. mine is Reality+Expectation divided by Strategy+ Human Reaction =Happiness.. to me, we humans are a complex being.. the expectation part of the whole equation is most important.. however the Human reaction is an inevitable source to consider .. because like I said.. we are a complex being.. humans cannot be control.. we are made to react to different things differently.. put in a few experience of happy and sad situation the outcome of the equation is unpredictable.. thats why in the equation it is divided over R and E.. then again this is just what I think...

Are you guys getting more confuse?? try being me.. a few months ago I read in an article that humans are most inspired at 4:00pm in the afternoon or 10:40pm at night!.. knowing this "particular fact" I will always dread this time of the day..( for me its 10:40pm).. i gusee because I'm more concious of the time.. beacuse at that time I am likely to be alone.. when I am about ready to be in bed.. that all this random brainwork (taken from farah's blog title) happens.. part of me like it but part of me hates it.. I can go on the whole night thingking of things.. and I cant sleep until I'm satisfied with writing it down, and God is my only friend for that time of day.. so this last few days.. I have been painting again.. and I have been taking up wood carving.. anything to tone down my oh so inspired brain.. like I said.. this post has no focus, just me being me talking about colours, the significant of the number two, equation for happiness and the inspirational 10:40pm..