The Observer in me..

The purpose to live, is it really a mystery, ask yourself why do you work so hard? is the money really worth it? are you suppose to be where you are now?.. is there any other options for you?.. Have you ever notice how uptil now, everything feels like a puzzle.. a part of your past connected to a future?.. and yet some part are still missing.. maybe its more like a chess game then, Nervous for your next move,a slight mistake and your out.. one of those moment where you feel unsure and your mind stays on the thought of the road not taken..

Ahh, while everyone in this world is focusing on the bad things in life, I for one, cant help but say all hope is not lost, really.. look around you.. (I SAID LOOK!).. did you see it? .. that simple 'Hello', that Father over there holding his daughter in his arm, That 'Ah ma" laughing with her friends, That hawker vender wiping sweat over his forhead while earnestly making your 'Kueh Tiaw' so that you get the best of the best.. did you?.. look again.. this time open your eyes, but beware dont judge.. there is still so many goodness in this world out there.. yet we take it for granted.. I say salute to all those that makes an effort to smile everyday, salute to ppl who makes it a point to enjoy life.. salute to YOU..

Dear God,

Open our eyes so that we see things the way YOU see things, Open our hearts so that we will LOve like you..

Reading time

The READING Bus

Pictures of the Mobile Library that I promise to show..This in the colourful cupboard that we use to put the books in.. Look! we have SpongeBob Books.. haha!

The cupboard consist of four parts and it can be separated from each other , so that it can fit into the Land Cruser... cool right?

THE READING BUs..

If you are wondering why its not actually a Bus, its because, we are targeting to go into 'Kampungs' and usually the roads to different 'Kampungs' are not smooth.. so the Land Cruser it is.. Ps: shall put up a video of the kids reading (so funny and cute) and a video of us palying in the 'sungai'..

SUPER HEROES and SUPER VILLAINS..

Ahh.. another one of those post, where you can get insparation from.. I now present.. the SUPER HEROES and SUPER VILLAINS principle, ok, its easy.. this idea came from my younger sister Lilian.. her question was "why ah, the orang jahat never give up, they always rajin".. thn it got me thinking.. yes, My Rainbow complex brain started coming up with an equation, theory and conclusion.. and today, for the first time, I had a 'TEaM" (you know who u are) to help me come up with the equation.. Super Heroes + Super Villians = Good worker.. haha.. why?? ok.. here goes..

Super Heroes make good workers because they NEVER COMPLAINT.. true? even after the most tiring day of getting beaten up, they never complaint 'oh! my knee hurts' or 'Oh! so painful my bacck".. even if someone shove a knife through their leg.. or shoot at them they never complaint about the pain or worst to the person doing it.. haha.. that's why I think we tend to like heroes more.. they just deal with the pain.. and get the job done..

Next, Super Villians, they NEVER GIVE UP, no matter how much they fail, they always come back with an even more 'evil plan' to destroy the world, take Mojojo as an example (I dont know why but I just think he is the perfect example.. hahaha).. he never gives up after endless attempt to control the world, haha.. SUPER Villains are diligent workers.. I mean, just when you thought, "thats it.. he's going to lose, they always come up with an aha!- say -hello -to -my -little friend moment..(you know, like suddenly they pull out a tiny gun from their pocket, and start shooting.. almost always, prepared for the worst.. Back up plan, totally exacuted)..

so all I want to say is THINK like a SUPER HERO and WORK like a SUPER VILLIAN..

Tagged by CHING

• Upload your fave picture and answer the question below
• why did you choose the photo?
• Because it makes me laugh.. hahaha.. a mix of modern and classic art..
• When was the last time you ate pizza?
• On Thursday night.. at Ps.Cheli and Auntie Mei's House..
• The last song you've listen too?
• An instrumental sape music.. I just bought the CD, very calming.. haha!
• What are you doing beside answering this tag?
• Eating chocolates..
• Besides your own name, how do you like people to call you?
• Ermm.. very tricky.. lets just say I can differentciate my old and new friends by the way they call me.. new friends call me Natasha (except AUDREY HON, JERVYNNA TEH and sometimes AUDREY TIONG or CHANGI).. close friends calls me Tasha, really old friends and family calls me TaCha or Cha.. exception to Nadia who calls me Tachi, and Parv calls me Tash..so.. does that answer your question?.. btw.. Natasha spelled backwards is AH SATAN!!.. muahah!
• Tag 6 person, the following questions are related to them
• 1)Manda
• 2)Apple
• 3)Farah
• 4)Aneez
• 5)Changi
• 6)Tonyong
• who is number 1?
• My ultimate Boss.. aka, BIG SIS
• No.3 has a relationship with?
• should be with her books since EXAMS are near!.. *cough* web guy *cough*
• Say something about number 5
• HOT STUFF, lame joke partner, Church geng, Best cheese cake baker! haha!.. secret out!
• How about number 4?
• My kindred spirit! lame joke filter and one of the mos coolest and real person I know on earth!.. uniquely herself..
• who is number 2?
• The Fruit, my stupid convo buddy, very mellow but can be funny at times and like a lil sister to me.. haha!
• Say something to number 6
• My good and faithful servant.. I mean Helper.. why have u forsaken me??.. why u want to quit? I buy u Mc Flurry soon ok!!!.. =D

Growing pains..

Grey hair, back pains, stiff muscle, stomach problems, eye sight problem.. what else? the body that you use to have control over is taking over you instead.. your used -to-be -freedom, in doing whatever you want to do, eat whatever you want to eat.. has become something to be concious about.. what is freedom when it is limited?.. isn't life cruel in that sense, first it allows you to enjoy and indulge in all the wonderful things of the world.. only now to realise what use to be fun isn't fun anymore..

When Manda was a baby, you took care of her, you gave her the ceremonial bath, "mandik bungai".. your intension is true.. She is beautiful..

When I was a baby, you took care of me.. I was name after you.. in photographs of me as a baby, I see you and me..

When Lilian and Jasmine was a baby, you were there too.. not much memory.. but you were stronger..

Now, roles are switch.. life, being life, will always change.. you sit, I stare.. you grunt, I respond, Humans are selective helpers.. everyone wants to play with the sick kid, but no one wants to clean up after an old person.. (hurts to know right?..) I'm still learning.. nope, this is not an Ode to Old age.. but more of a reminder to me, that when I am old and weak one day..I should never expect much, that we humans are all the same.. and if anyone is taking care of me.. I should appreciate them more.. knowing what I know now, I hope this attitude of gratitude stays in me..

* the photo is the famous Ruai I have been talking about

Hahahaha.. part 2

One day, siew pau and maggi mee had a big fight.Maggi mee beat siew pau up until it had bruises on its pau body.

Siew Pau loose in the fight and went back to tell all the paus family;kaya pau, tau SA pau, curry pau, and etc.So together?.. all paus went to find maggi mee for revenge.

On the way... they met Spaghetti?.. . so all pau ran to Spaghetti and BEAT the hell up on Spaghetti that Spaghetti can't say a word,

Spaghetti then scream...
"WHAT DID I DO? I don't even know you all"???.Then the siew pau say??..
"HEH! MAGGI MEE! Don't think I can't recognize you after you do REBONDING!"

*taken from KK chew..

ABC easy as 123

The ABC.. how long has it been since you sang along the ABC song? isn't it amazing that with just 26 alphabets many words can be form, and from those words stories are made.. through the stories, different lives are touched?.. something so simple used in a big way..

This year for me Easter was spend helping out as a 'Librarian' for the Reading Bus project done by Bethany Ministries with the aim of helping different villages around Kuching to appreciate the English Language. We (Ps.Che Chung, Janna, Pei Sing, Ben, Grace and I).. went to Kampung Pasir Ulu.. which was about 1km away from the border of Indonesia.. haha.. we were so near to Indonesia that Maxis send text msg welcoming us to Indonesia.. talk about "I will follow you".. beat that Digi.. haha..jk..

Seeing all those kids get excited when we told them that all the books, that we had with us was for them to read and enjoy made me remember the first time I learned to read.. it was in Kindy.. St.faith.. it was a Peter and Jane book.. man, I love that book.. but the best memory I had of my reading ability was when I was around 6 years old and notice as my mum would drive around, that I was able to pronounce all the name of the shops as I pass them by.. That was what made me understand the Importance of reading.. I thought to myself.. 'this reading stuff is pretty cool and useful after all'.. haha..

As I grew older, reading became more of a homework than a fun thing to do while you are bored kind of thing, but by primary 4, my encounter with one of the most inspiring English teacher that I have ever known and Thank God for Mrs. Anna Hon made me realise my love for books. Yup, thanks to her, I improve on my English.. and thanks to her reading became one of my hobbies, she thought me the best way to gain knowledge is through Books..

Mrs. Anna Hon, was a really cool teacher, she not only inspired me but my whole class.. through her teaching she made English Fun and interesting. She was strick but at the same time caring, she was not a afraid to push her students to do the best that they could. She was frank but not hurtful, she encourage each and everyone of us.. I am a living testimony of her works, me and all those who she taught can honestly say.. she was truly a person full of passion. My friend who was weak and not confident in the English language at the beginning of the year finished reading the Harry Potter book later that year and was ahead of some of us when she was one of the first to buy the second book. I was so inspired by Mrs Anna Hon's ability to plant that excitement into someone's heart within three years.

While I was getting encouragement in school through Mrs.Anna, at home Manda, my older sister became my strength or should I say my contender.. hahaha.. I would remember fighting over a book with her, waiting for her to finish it.. Her love for books also came from Mrs.Anna, who actually I can honestly say changed her , Mrs.Anna was a big part of her life and thanks to that ever since primary 2, I prayed that God would make her my English teacher one day.. (amen He answers prayers). My sister was the first HEAD LIBRARIAN in SRB St.TERESA.. haha, that post stayed on to her even until now, she would wrap all the books and organise all the books in the house, from Enid Blyton to Goosebumps to EVEN the ARCHIE COMICS!!!.. (I secretly thinks she has mild OCD).. haha.. jokes, jokes..

Wow, talk about memories.. anyway as I was observing the kids in Pasir Ulu, while they were reading, I saw a little of me in everyone of them, some were happy to just finish a book, some were mesmerise by the pictures.. and some struggling with the words. I pray that one just like me they would realise how cool reading is and in turn be inspired to write their own books.. Their future and inspiration could be from the Reading bus, just like Mrs. Anna Hon was to me and my friends..

Valentine Grinch...

weird.. its 1st of April.. so one would expect me to blog about April fool's day.. well, sorry to disappoint you.. I'm going to talk about the world between the boy and the girl.. oh, yeah I said.. The L word.. love.. is what they call it.. haish, this relationship thing is never easy.. but who am I to say.. its just that every where I turn someone somewhere is going through this Love epidemic.. its like, in the beginning when everything is still new, they are always smiling and happy.. then after a long time, things can get very complicated and all hell break lose.. like my previous post, I believe I'm more of the observer.. slowly I notice the change.. the cause and effect, you might put it.. never really understand, how one and one becomes two.. too blur to read the signs.. but somehow, I always end up knowing more than I should.. but I choose to never reveal what I know unless it has publicly been announce.. I learn that from the wise owl, the less you speak the more you know, the more you know the less you speak.. I am amaze at how easily girls get flattered by sweet words..(trust me I know, 11 years in an all girl school help me to conclude this).. yeah, poor girls.. then again its not our fault (we are vain creatures).. however if I could say one thing to any girl to stop them from going through any unnecessary heart aches is that never over analyze things.. dont fall for even the slightest act of good doing.. Girls tend to misinterpret things alot.. just because the guy sitting next to you borrowed his pencil doesn't mean he is in LOVE with you, or just because a boy helped walked you home doesn't mean he wants to marry you.. I believe, boys are humans who are thought by their parents to be good people too.. plain and simple.. (hopefully all my guy friends out there agree if not, well we'll learn something new from their side of the story).. all I'm saying is WAIT!.. wait till he come to you in the FLESH and tells you he likes you.. then you can..??.. erm.. do whatever you want to proclaim to the world.. if not.. its his lost.. (ha! sounds like an advice page in a magazine).. so girls please learn to guard your heart.. then again talking to your friends on what his next moves going to be is part of the fun in growing up as a girl.. haha.. i have a feeling I'm revealing to much about the girl world..

ps: since its april fools day.. I have a joke.. Gajah terbang dengan apa?....

susah payah! haha..