Life is but a breeze

and so I row.. row.. row my boat gently down the stream.. (you know how the song goes) but in this particular journey.. the stream lead me to the sea.. into the unknown.. but first I must appologise to anyone who follows this blog.. I am sorry, for neglecting you.. here is me blowing the dusty comment box, cleaning up the cobwebs.. and polishing the layout. This finally feels like home again.. ok, so back to the sea.. I should call it the sea of life.. so wide, and no proper pathway.. best you can do is use the stars to navigate your way.. but that would mean, waiting for night to come and risk being in the dark.. I could end my post here.. let you interpret what I just wrote.. you might even come up with a better 'meaning making' than mine.. all I have is.. life is all about taking risk no? or how about there is always a solution to a problem, we just have to be mindful of the strategy? or or.. you will never know whats install for you untill you step out in faith.. whichever it is.. I wish you the best of luck in life (if you are still able to read this, then you are still on your journey.. no?) =)

again...

How can it be, I thought I was prepared this time around. I've been here before, I've seen it happen, I experince it.. and learned from it.. I should be prepared. Each memory I hold on to, is slowly turning into a past.. You are suppose to stay there, I see you then I see science, I see you then I see that blue car.. its suppose to stay that way.

In midst of sadness and grieve, I keep thinking of the korean drama you love watching.. =') and that made me smile.. Cheers to you Teacher.. your were trully a great women of science.. thanks for opening up your house to teach us.. UPSR was not scary because of you..

I do get annoyed.. =)

The usual things in life are always taken for granted.. this is my 10:40pm mind talking.. random ramblings in the middle of the night. The observer in me is awaken again, this time in the internet world I observe. The power of anonimity is so powerful, it is as if there is this technological invisibility cloak that is so empowering that it makes mere humans feel like underground heroes.. I laugh..

Hello the valentine Grinch is talking: can you please not let the whole world know about your dinner plans for tonight on facebook? ooh, that goes with your breakfast plan, lunch plan.. holiday plan, random outing plan, or even your whole life story and how much you miss your 'baby', 'darling', 'lover', LOVE', 'Honeypoohbear', 'hunnybunny', 'jigalipuff''???? eh? hahaha.. and he/she is right next to you????.. yup, it is quite rude.. I feel rude reading your status as if it is a lost love letter and your DEAR one who is the receiver is some lost soldier in a war zone...mesti ka? is it a need or a want? I am asking you that question.. beacause I have no choice, when your comment/status appear on my homepage.. I call it Internet PDA and it is FOR ALL EYES TO SEE... I wonder...

Lets all have an understanding here... whatever is on the internet, whether you put it to private or not.. it REALLY IS NOT PRIVATE!.. nothing is safely private.. photos? private blogs?? (why have ablog in the first place right?).. I question...

what say you? anybody care to comment and have a go at what makes them annoyed? =)

MICHELLE& BSB

I really miss you, there's something I gotta say
The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside, I know you are

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (yeah!)
Never gone
No, no, no, no

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
(Somehow) somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday yeah)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (in my life, yeah)
Never gone (gone from me)

If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again
(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)
(Never gone) Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close, always close),
everyday (everyday, everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye (yeah, yeah)
I know you would be forever in my life
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are (in my heart is where you are)
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Never gone, never farIn my heart is where you are

Rear view mirror

Weird how life has changed, one day you are playing in the sand box and next thing you know, you are worrying about a degree.. no connection? Exactly my purpose then.. 'See you later' is actually, 'see you tomorrow', and 'tomorrow' can actually means 'later'. 'Again' is 'never' and 'never' is the 5th time. A new thought came to my mind the other day, its called a Positive Assumption, with this, it makes life more acceptable.

For example, how many of you has a friend or just know of a person either in school or the work place, that always almost everytime you meet up with them you see them in the same kind of clothes, the same t-shirt, jeans and socks.. so the typical assumption would be 'wow' this person is very lazy never care to was their clothes'.. But what if it was the exact opposite? what if the person is very hardworking, and washes their clothes everytime they come back from school or work.. I guess some would call it not judging or just indenial but I call it making life a little more bearable.

I learned this way of thinking form my grandpa.. another example of a possitive assumption can be useful especially if you have just been bullied on the road, how many of you have ever encounter one of those annoying 'Over-Takers'.. well, in this situation my grandpa would always say 'Angka bini ya ka beranak'.. hahaha.. translation: 'Maybe the wife is going to give birth'.. or my favorite.. 'Angka ya sakit perut ka bira'.. translation: 'Maybe he/she is having stomach ache and needs to go to the toilet'.. hahaha.. see what I mean by making life more bearable??

2010 I am counting on you..

I love how my house looks like during christmas.. =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. what?? I am 8 days late? typical.. one new year resolution down the drain.. speaking of new year resolution, 2009 new year resolution to donate blood, was -impossible.. I had to at least be 50kg.. I tried to eat my heart out, but I guess due to the fact that I stay 10 minutes away frm Curtin.. and have to walk almost everyday.. makes it difficult for me to hold the extra kilos.. ok.. the Holiday was great for me.I spend alot of time with the family. If there is one thing I like about hoildays its the family gathering and FOOD!!!! haha.. will update soon!

Advise of the day: Set your Priority right in the begining of the year.. and remember to stay with it!

Life of a Student----> Living abroad =D

The 5 major aspect in a student life includes Studies, Lect/Teachers, Funding, Food supplies, and Social Life.

Studies

A Students, is someone undergoing educational training.. (Duh..). Studies play an important role in a student's life. It is basically the reason why they are where they are in the first place (woah, try saying that fast). In this educatinal journey, getting the good grades is a priority (at least that is what all of us wants to believe) in a students life. It is something that can make or break you. Its very effect on a student can lead to from having a good day into a terrible day or vice versa. The grading system is more of a puzzle in a student life, its like playing a card game, a little % gain here, another % loss.. which will in the end ditermine the ultimate game known as FINALS (come to think of it.. naming it FINALS.. is abit mean)

Lect/ Teachers

Some call them mentors, these are people who said to be the one teaching/mentoring and lecturing the 'Students'. Play your cards right and these Teachers could be the one that helps make your life a lot easier. These lecture are usually categorize into 3 categories, the Lasser-fair, Participative and Authoritative.

Lasser-fair teachers usually lets you do things anyway you want.They sometime make you feel like that little 'homework' is not that imortant and they are usually Fun to be around. But be warned, as sometimes these are the lecturers who ends up marking you down for being too relax in class.

Participative Teachers, are the type that wants to be part of your life, they are always there if you need help and push you to do your best. The only down side of having these kind of lecturer is in the of the day, if you did bad for an assignment, it is usually YOU! who feels like you let them down.

Authoritative Teachers.. the name says it all. They are the strict makers, they dont believe in excuses and they seem like they are out to get you. (ermm... no comment for these kind of Teachers.. just do your homework and hand in assignments to survive).

Funding

If you are a student living abroad.. then this is a no joke aspect, No money= 0.. as in Zero nothing..! there is no word to describe it.. =)

Food Supplies

Every person I know, who is studying abroad, would agree with me on this.. INDO MEE. yes, if you are a student studying abroad, then you probably would have a stack of instant noodles in your pantry incase of any 'EMERGENCY'. Speaking of food, I should point out that, as a student living far away from home you would apprieciate the smaller things in life, LITERALLY, there is just no way for you to buy food just enough for one person, everything seems to be in family pack! Dont talk about bread, to buy one loaf, who would have to plan out how to gulf the whole loaf in a week, which in the end would lead to Toast for breakfast, Sandwhich for Lunch... and????? for Dinner???--- thus with this 'sharing is helping'...

Social Life

Usually starts from Friday evening untill sunday evening.. Going out with friends, hanging out.. plain old enjoying your free time.. during the weekends.. As for me a fellow student living abroad I have to admit, I am lacking in this area of expertise.. WHY??.. well friday nights for me is spend doing homework.. which brought me back to the statement that I made in Lit Class due to handing out an assignment early.. (Farah remember this) 'I have nothing better to do so I just do my homework'---> in plain english.. I have no social life.. (Ms Anne calls says it a blessing, that I have no Distraction) Its to the point where I have to schedule my time to do one homework or assignment at different time ONLY because I dont want to be bored from doing nothing.. =D haha.. like I said LACK of expertise.. so social life is still in the works.. however be assured I do have great friends here.. we just eat lunch alot.. haha..

Its all in the mind..

I promised a post about open mindedness.. I only have one thing to point out being open minded is a two way thing.. Think about it.. if you accept one thing you should accept the other..

*Ok, that probably was not how I plan to blog about open mindedness..but hey.. I have another good story to tell.. Today was just like any other ordinary day.. except that.. I accidently locked myslef out of my room,so I had to call the tenants to come open it up, AND pay $50.. yup.. all for making her leave the office at lunch hour.. OOO...what to do, and the 'smartest' ( I use the term very loosely) thing out of this is MY SAPRE KEY WAS IN THE ROOM ----therefore SPARE KEY=EPIC FAIL (at least in my world).... So please everyone.. base on my experience.. remember to make an emergency spare.. and put it somewhere else..

Anyway that was not the most interesting that happen, after getting everything sorted out, I had to go for Statistic class.. and guess what, when I finally reached class I noticed I had forgotten my lecture notes and HOMEWORK!!! thanks to the Ang moh (sorry cant remember his name) who ask me what last week lecture was about, before class.. Good thing it was like 20 minutes before class started ( wah tacha come so early for what??.. biasa la hahaha) and so I ran! I ran like Never before, back to my place to retrieve my 1% worth of homework (1%??? you say.. lets make this simple 1+1+1=makes ALOT).. but in the middle of everything.. whilst runing.. (yes whilst runing) I thought.. 'today is such a nice day'.. and start thanking God for everything..

I thank God for the weather (sunny+ windy),I thank God for legs, I thank God that I stayed 10 minutes away from CIC, I thank God for good health..and I thank God for every single cell in my body at that moment, working together, making ATP (adenosine triphosphate) energy stored in cells YERRR (forgive me, I just when through a Human Biology test).. not an inch of frustration was in me and because of that I felt happy. If this was a Test from God I know today I pass.. and even if there was some kind of Satanic invervention I know I won this battle =P. So everyone.. be thankful for EVERYTHING.. you have.. =)
*Ps: I made it to class.. 5 min early somemore.. man.. I miss 'Hari Sukan' in school

Pictures tell a diferent story..

There was a news recently about how "Facebook parents" can spy on their children through the tagging system on facebook. This had me thingking, looking through my collection of photos that I have, I start to wonder what kind of person will parents think of me as friends to their sons and daughthers, it even got me thinking, will this effect my opportunity in the future to get a proper job? what will happen if someone decide to blackmail me with my photos??? all I can say is I have very good reason for the photos that I proudly post up.. here goes..

Manda and me + Chocolate mask = To promote inner beauty and show

the world that we care =)

Farah and me = Ms Anne (Lit Lect) told us this is a good way
to grow taller. We were testing her theory..

Blue Hair Tasha- Testing out Hair colour

before dying your hair is the smart thing to do.

Penstache- The facebook epidemic, where whoever was tag is

suppose to post a photo of themselve with a pen between

their nose. Manda and I took it to the next level

Because Daddy always say, always do things with the

best you can do! =)

A picture of me with a moustache = Promoting Prostate Cancer

Awarness just like Breast cancer with the pink ribbon,

its a moustasche for them!(google it up if you dont believe)

and lastly a picture of me with a santa hat in class=

to show to the world that I love Christmas, and that you can fun

even studying in class... (Main point: I study) =)

P.S. Sorry friends if you were expecting like really scandalous photos.. this is as scandalous as it gets.. so do you think anyone would employ me in the future? and parents would you allow your children to be friends with me?.. I have nothing to hide.. I guess.. =) Peace!

The Last Minute good old days..

This post is specially dedicated to Michelle Helen D'rozario. You will forever be remembered my friend =).

* In photo....
Band Name: Last Minute
Band Members:
- Michelle. H= Lead singer
- Marie J= Second voice
- Deborah D= Guitarist
- Natasha B= err... hand clapper, and ketepong player (yess.. KETEPONG)

Debut: Talentine 2005
Awards: Second place in Talentine 2005
Performances: Talentine 05, YSC Night, RCYU AGM and RC Night..

Well known for: doing own version of 'You look wonderful tonight' and 'Kiss me'
- Experimenting with traditional and modern instrument ( eg. KETEPONG)

Disband: In 2006, as a sign of respect. Last performance in March 2006, Michelle's Funeral.. Last Minute can never be the same without her..


The Last Minute, why? because, we would preform last minute and before we made our first special appearence it was like one hour before we step on stage.. so last Minute it was..
This photo was taken in 2005 if I am not mistaken.

*Ps: Me with Short Hair!.. hahaha.. ( post on open mindedness soon to be put up)

bad habits

This is a video of manda and me talking about Bad Habits... its about 5 min... so enjoy..

Ps: listen with earphones for better sound quality..

a post....

I know, I promise to post up some really "cool" post but forgive me I have been busy *cough* Lazy*cough* =).. but believe me, it has been on my mind.. maybe the real reason here is.. what is it that I want to write about.. so lets make this fun.. I will make a list and see which one do you.. YES YOU! (in my commercial voice).. want me to start with first.. =)

1)Art

2)Open mindedness

3)Leadership

4)Student life

5)Bad Habit

Plesea leave a comment on the chatbox, facebook or comment box.... anyone who pick first will be the next post and so on and so forth.. lets see, if this will ingnite the fire in me to blog again..

WAS about to delete this blog..

Two weeks ago, I was staring at the delete button and was thinking of deleting THIS blog. I felt like there was no point anymore and that this blog is not giving me or the readers any benefits. I stared at it for at least a good 1 hour, (yes.. ONE HOUR).. then I thought, maybe I should write one last post, So I figured my last would be about all the people that has impacted me, people that if I have never met my life right here, right now, would be extremely different.. while the angel and devil on my shoulders was battling the 'to delete not delete'. I realise why do I need to wait until it was my last post to write about these wonderful people? Its the same case when answering the question

'If you know today was your last day on earth, how would you spend it'? usually
many would aswer the 'standard' answer, 'I would spent it with my loved ones and
tell them I love them'.. Why? why do we wait for the last minute to them that we
love them?

After much 'snacking' and reading Apple's and Farah's blog, I figured that I should keep this blog after all its like an online scrapbook, many experince shared, all good and bad.. Also its like a daily reminder of how far I have gone in life. Like what Farah wrote, 'this is like our journal '.. Ms. Anne always encouraged us to be REFLECTIVE LEARNERS.. at first I did not understand, what that means, but now I do.. its not enough to just go through things (in her case learning new literature style) but whats also important is what you understand after that .. I guess this is the most important thing any Teacher could teach their Students.. after all, you what they say 'The Best Teachers not only teach but INSPIRES'..

Looking back at all the pros and cons, I guess blogs in the Future would be useful, just imagine this If there was some kind of Miracle and I do get Married and have Kids of my own some day.. Telling them my life story and how I cope with everything around me would be more interesting.. or better yet, to my grandchildren, through this blog, they can read how I felt, and how I dealt with life experience in what I live by... and maybe it can help them understand the situation, making more sense to them as I was their age at that time and becomes easier for them to relate. And of all my silly jokes, inspirational moments and theories

--> Imma gonna be the COOLEST grandma! o yea o yea..

I imagine the conversation would be like.. 'OOOOOOOO, I experience 'that' before read my blog entery on how I cope with 'that' in year 2009, April 1st'.. haha!! ( I am guessing some of you will do that after reading this post, I can't remember myself, if you do tell me what was it.. there might be a prize waiting for you all the way from Perth Australia ;D )

MY conclusion after much yapping is.... to keep this blog until the day I DIE or.. until blogger ever charge $100 per post than bye bye.. till then, I shall be here forevermore..

Ps: I will do a post on the 'Wonderful' people soon.. so be nice and who knows my 'FUTURE kids' will be reading about you..

*Edited: ok, people.. I have re-spell the word DELETE, looks like it was the only thing that caught your attention- then maybe it was intentional after all.. wink wink..

I rather

Sticks and Stones can hurt me, but harsh words can never hurt me.. Sometimes I rather sticks and stones, bruises and cuts are better off to me.. bitter words are like harsh knife that stabs the heart and with every minute the pain that lingers feels as if the knife is twisted a little to emphasize on the pain. As a reminder that no one can run away from it, that deep pain turns into hollow emptiness, your body starts to feel numb, you are not sure of what you feel anymore. You tell yourself to be strong, you curse the cursed, like a boat in the middle of the sea, rocking back and forth, you know where you are but at the same time everything around is unfirmiliar.

From the mouth, the true intention of the heart is revealed.. that is why, what you say or said can have an impact on someone,yesterday, today or tomorrow.. This is for all of us who don't think before we speak and who struggle with egoism.. because at least once in our life we were the one or the other..

Break

I am having a 2 weeks break at the moment.. so lets see if I have more reasons to blog.. actually for the pass few days I have been having alot of '10:40pm' moments (inspirational moments) but I'll leave it for some other day.. time to show the world how I spend my holidays..

Love part 2.. Sorry not today..

Yup, yup.. to love we must learn that it is all about timing.. and I am not talking about 'oo, i'll be free tomorrow, so I'll love you then ok?'.. Well actually it not about timing, but all about timing.. (you get me?).. its about giving that time, that one hour you cannot get back to spend with someone.. someone once ask me, how do you spell love? so I spelled LOVE.. then she said no.... so I thought.. 'OOO, I get it.. (it must be something to do with the Bible).. then I spelled.. JESUS.. and she said 'nope' again.. so I just gave up, and waited for the answer, she spelled it.. as T.I.M.E.. and so the long 'intellectual conversation' we had was sum up into the conclusion where, when we love someone or something, we don't mind investing our time on them.. because we know its worth it..

Note: I went to the Royal Perth Show and it was Awesome.. I love the picture, one of my proudest moment in life.. no editing invole, the colour of the sky was just perfect..

and the greatest of these is. LOVE.. Part 1

Whoever does not Love does not know God, because God is love (1 John 4:8). Love is more important than anything else. It is what ties everything completely together (Col 3:14). Most important of all, continue to show deep love for one another, for love covers a multitude of sins (1 Peter 4:8). Three things will continue forever: Faith, Hope and Love. And the greatest of these is Love (1 Cor 13:13). We must show Love through actions that are sincere, not through empty words (1 John 3: 18). The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love. No matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without Love (1 Cor 13:3). Whenever you can, do good to those who need it. Never tell your neighbour to wait until tomorrow if you can help them now (Prov 3:27-28).

I suddenly felt the inspiration to take a few Bible verses about love and stringing them into a paragraph that would, what I would like to see as why, how and when we should Love.

Ps: and yes people this is only part one..

Facebook- the most contagious sickness since the Flu

Wah.. that is one long tittle.. =) anyway, I am sure most of you will agree with me. Can you remember the days without facebook.. wait.. how about the days Before Google .. (BG).. haha.. life was.. more peaceful.. hahaha.. yeah.. trully it was..

* I am not here to talk about the badside of facebook, or the effects on it.. there is already alot of news report and blogpost about this issue.. however I do want to justify that it is a good means of communication after the telepnone hahaha..

The reason why I suddenly want to write about this because my youngest sister (no name mention) has a facebook account. wait wait I know what you guys are thingking.. what an irresponsible thing to do! to let a child (12 years old) have an account, well to my defense, I have friends of a friend who made a facebook account for their child who is only 5 months old..yes people.. now that is... INTERESTING.. haha.. and in his account, all his family members are his 'friends'.. come to think about it, it is sweet.. imagine when he grows up, and lets say all his friends accumilate, WOW.. that makes keeping in touch to a whole new level ( I knew you since you where born.. literally) hahah

I guess it is an ok thing if you know how to use it for the right reason and you keep a look out on the privacy mode and all. Just make sure you dont post up any personal infomation about yourself that could bring danger. Plus without a doubt it is good way to keep in touch with friends and family. I am looking in the family perspective here, where uncles and aunties, grandma and granpa can all exchange photos and silly comments.. I know some people are uncomfortable with this idea, because some say that whatever happens on facebook is their business and I respect that, and yes I am also aware of the 'Block button' where you can choose who is allowed to see your pictures and comment..(see its not all that bad)..and I have been noticing a trend now where people are making family trees where you are able to communicate with family members from all over..another good thing about facebook it has the ability loosen up the hasel of imforming invited guess of up dates to certain events i.e: birthday party location, the new time of a certain event, concert and even meeting.. which I think is a really cool thing

Actully I have nothing much to say.. haha.. just amaze at how fast the technology is growing...yeah.. so how many of you have your family on your facebook? .. The 'IN' thing now also is 'twitter' ( where people write updates on what they are up to EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF THEIR LIFE).. (actually it already is).. even Obama and (some say OSAMA) has one.. haha.. I think if the government wants to know what is up with the world.. they should have a facebook and twitter account.. hahaha.. imagine this happening on Obama and Osama twettering page.

Osama is planing to bomb the world

Obama is wondering witch part of the world?

Osama is saying no way I am reveling it to you

Obama is trying to figure out where..

Osama say USA watch out!

Obama say.. AHA!!!

seee.. what I mean, forget double agents and spies.. get facebook or twitter.. hahaha

Math

haha.. have you ever wanted to do this for a math test?.. I feel like this mathematical question is a representation on life itself.. We are always looking for 'X' and we try all soughts of ways to find it when sometimes it is just in front of our eyes.. But then again, by just pointing it out and not proving HOW you find it can still make you unsatisfied, and that is why getting the right equation is important.. 'x' could be anything, what is definate is in order to find it you must learn How. It could be any set of Goals in your life.. (it could be who you want to be,or what you want to do in life) so think about it..what is your 'X' factor??.. (I sound like Im marketing math.. Come join Math 101..) haha..

Why I miss Malaysia..

NYPD - should learn from us.. now, we all know where our speeding tickets come from.

SETARBUCK KOPI- the original coffee..

Astro rules!