Honesty..

Honestly, I dont know what to write, I feel like bloging, I know What I feel, I know there is a certain something that I want to express..but I just dont know how.. wait.. maybe I do.. but I want to say it in a really sincere way.. ( u get my point?).. The thing is, reading my past post.. I feel a certain shame?guilt? dissapointment? just full on being unreal.... Like im not being Honest.. I seem to be toooooooo HAPPY.. as if nothing bad ever come my way.. Im scared ppl get the impression that I never feel pain or go through trials and tribulation.. I DO!.. I understand those feelings in times of need.. I know how it feels to be sad and lonely.. yes, lonely. To be worried about something, to feel angry, to feel like crying, to feel confuse.. whatever you face.. I can asure you.. I've been through it and still am, and sooner or later.. will go through it again.. its part of life.. I UNDERSTAND. But No matter what.. it maybe.. I Know a little secrect that never fails to make me strong again.. I know where ever I go, or whoever I meet.. There, God has put me because he needs me.. That is how I keep looking at the brighter side of life.. somewhere somehow, I am needed and that make me feel special.

I have receive alot of msg and phone calls from friends, family and even teachers, wishing me for the best.. I AM TOUCHed and feel soo grateful to each person who cares about me.. I sometimes wonder if I deserve it.. You all are such a blessing to me.. Thanks for the encouragement..